Just Maybe.

Maybe, I have been lying to myself all these while. Thinking that you were long gone and forgotten. The thoughts that I have seems to be contradicting everything that I have assumed all along. Being clueless and doubtful of my own feelings and thoughts seriously sucks. It is as if I don't know myself good enough. It feels like my soul is in an unknown persons body.

On the contrary, is it just me trying to make myself think otherwise.
Or, it is true that I still do care.