A Let Down.

I really find this encouraging.

For those of you who didn't know for which I really don't think most of you know, I got my A-Levels results for my 1st semester last Thursday. Unfortunately, I have to say that I got results that I really didn't expect. It was honestly the least of my expectations although I know that I'd get bad results, I didn't it to turn out worse than what I thought it would be. That is just how bad it is.

What was worse is that after obtaining my results, I started doubting my capabilities to pursue what I dream of. Again, if you don't know already, I aspire to become a doctor in the near future. Speaking of which, with the results I have gotten, I highly doubt that I will be able to achieve my aspiration. It didn't end there. For the record, I felt like shit the whole day thinking that I have not only let myself down but had the feeling that I have failed my parents. Well, it is probably because this is college we're talking about and that every paper that I sit for is RM 200. Now, I have to resit for my paper which also means more money. Although my dad has agreed to my decision to resit for the paper, I still feel bad. Money doesn't grow on trees. asdfghjkl Besides, my results holds the future that I have. It continued with me thinking if I should continue with A-Levels or change my course and what not. Although, in the end, I know that A-Levels is the better choice considering the fact that it keeps my options wider.

I guess I have not been doing my best despite thinking that I have done my best. Apparently now, it wasn't my best after all. Nonetheless, it is of no point to cry over spilt milk. What has been done has been done. As of now, I think that I should be doing what I should be doing for my own good as I believe that I hold my own future. Should just consider it as a lesson and simply cast and trust my big almighty God as He has a greater plan for me. :)

I'm a big girl now.

Time to be serious about life.

PS. It is funny how one piece of paper can change your life.