Life hasn't been a bed of roses for me lately. In fact, I feel that I have had too much on my plate and yet more food is being added onto the plate so much so that I am getting tired and weary. Sad to say, this is happening to a point where I don't know how much more can I take and tolerate before I start breaking down and giving up on everything including myself. Well, it is said that God wouldn't put us through something we cannot bear but I feel that I am reaching the peak if I haven't already reached it.
Why can't life be any simpler? Or maybe I am just giving myself a hard time?
This all started when I had to decide on the course I intend to pursue in the future. Me trying to figure out what it is that I want to do is not the main problem but the fact that my parents are pressuring and stressing me out is what started driving me up the walls. On one hand, they tell me that they are there to support me in whatever decision I want to make for my future but on the other hand, every opinion I come up with gets rejected and overlooked. I know that they want the best for me and what not but why give me hope in choosing my own pathway when you wouldn't even take what I have to say into consideration? You might as well just tell me what it is you want me to do. It'll just solve every damn problem.
Nonetheless, it is safe to say that everything has been settled and I will start my final stage of education next year. Okay, one do not exactly stop learning like, ever but I would just like to think that going into university is the last stage of gaining formal knowledge. Not really looking forward to it but I don't exactly have a choice. It feels as if I am doing all these just to please my parents instead of my own will. As much as I have all these feelings cooped up in me, I just have to move on and live with reality.
Reality can be really cruel and harsh.
All I can ever hope is for things to get better along the way.
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