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It feels like the right time to blurt my thoughts and feelings out now. So here goes nothing. :)

I was showering just now when I started reminiscing the good old days I used to have. Note the use with a 'd' behind. Yes, used. Besides that, I realise that I usually do my deep thinking when I am in the bathroom. And also when I am alone in the room. Weird huh. Probably because I seem to be in my own world there with nobody else around me. Nevertheless, I'm pretty sure you guys are the same as me too. Lol. Don't lie! Even if you can lie to me, you can't lie to yourself.

Honestly, it is really sad to think back and see how much things have changed. Well, I don't think I need to elaborate on why it is sad to look back into the memories do I? Its basically because things changed for the worse. Thinking about it somewhat give me chills down my spine. I wouldn't really mind or would even give a crap if things changed for the better. I would be over the moon in fact and I think I wouldn't even end up like this. The me, now.

Looking back and thinking of all the things that I have done thus far, I have to say that it leaves a smile on my face. Seriously, I have done many many things beyond my expectations and wildest dreams. Thanks to all my friends who spice up my life and also that one particular person. I think I should be grateful that I get away with things safely too. Lol. God knows what will happen if I don't. ><

Anyway, I don't need to be Einstein to know that things change over time. Not only do things change but people do too. Some for the better, some for the worse. Although deep down in my heart, there is this speck of hope that if anything were to change, it will always be for the better. However, I realise that it is kind of stupid and foolish for me to think so. I can't comprehend my own absurdity now. ==" The thing is, I don't really like to see things ending in a bitter way despite knowing the fact that things don't always turn out the way we want it to.

Along the way, things changed. So much and so drastically that I am still trying to digest the fact. I feel as if I have a cow's digestive system. Imagine me going around moo-ing. Lol. Okay, not funny. Its just that every time I feel that I have digested all the facts and truths, it'll start to come back up again. Not once, not twice but for so many times. What is most devastating is that the people whom I care for a lot changed a lot along the way too. Not by an inch but by a yard long. Maybe even more. And the people whom I think that would be the ones sticking around left along the way. I guess this is where we find out our true friends? Going through all the shits with us and staying by our side.

All in all, I simply have the sense that I am losing my closest friends. One by one. I don't think I know them anymore now. They seem so different and strange to me now. Strange not in an alienated way but... Ah, I think you can figure out yourself. :) We're nothing but back to where we once started. Strangers. :(

Life's a beatch. 'Nuff said.

I guess I should end here. Or else, I'll probably continue talking nonsensically considering the fact that I am typing this post in a half dead condition. Lol. I need to dive into my bed, NOW.

Good night. :)