Just The Same.

So, this is how you really want things to be like don't you?

I think that you have portrayed your message really clearly.

I really blame myself for being so stupid and delusional to think otherwise.

Always hoping for the better side of things.

Always searching for ways to bridge this gap between us.

Always waiting and making a fool of myself.

Always the one being sorry and guilty.

Always doing things that requires me to put my pride second in place.

No matter how much I do or attempt to do, nothing seems to work or happen.

Everything is like a waste of effort.

I asked for a small favor. A favor that doesn't require you to lift a finger or waste a single calorie. And yet, you couldn't fulfill it. Is it that difficult that you can't do it? For me at least? I guess it is starting to get clearer and clearer as the days passes by to come to realise where I actually stand in your life. Mind you, it is really saddening to know that someone you truly care for is putting you last in their list while they still conquer the first place in your personal list. I wonder who is the bigger idiot in this picture. The other party or I. Although the answer is pretty obvious I have to say.

I've grown very tired to actually bother anymore. I'm at the brink of simply giving up. Maybe I should just give up. You have drained me from all my energy and emotions. I am at daze now. Not knowing what to do anymore. Neither do I have the strength to find a way to deal with it.

Tired and done.
For now.