Not So Keen.

Honestly, I am really not looking forward to tomorrow. I know that it should be a happy day or however you would label it as. Whatever it may be, I just hope that I'll go to bed tonight and it'll already be Thursday by the time I wake up. Don't ask me why cause I don't really know myself. Okay, maybe I do but I'd rather keep it to myself although in actual fact, I've told one or two of my friends why. I realise I'm rambling, but bear with me. Thank you.

I have to say that this is also my first time in 17 years feeling in such a way. I used to be all so excited and pumped up about the 5th of October. But I guess people change and so do feelings about a particular thing or event. And so, I'm left with nothing but being miserable at best the night before the 5th of October and praying hard that God will grant me this little wish of mine by skipping the particular day this year. Hopefully I wouldn't feel the same way again next year. I don't know what I'll end up doing then.

Oh well, despite the fact that I just want to stay home and act as if tomorrow never comes, I promised my friends that I'll get my ass in school. A promise is a promise and I'll hold on to my words. So yea, guess life just goes on although it sucks, to the core of the earth.

PS. Hi Vicki! We'll see how long you'll persist with that little goal of yours. You'll probably give up before I even give up. :) Just saying. Hee.

PSS. Hi Sarafina! Thanks for your post. It really means a lot. ;)

I told myself that I'll do my best to be who I used to be. Not for you. Not for me. But for all the people around me who actually truly cares. From the bottom of their hearts.