Letters To You - # 3

Dear J,

This is one of those rare nights where we don't actually have the time to talk to one another much. Nonetheless, every second spent with you is time well spent and worth spending. One thing I learnt from being in a long distance relationship is that every second counts and that every second is actually valuable because we don't get the chance to spend time with each other physically until we reunite and instead we have to do most things virtually. I hope you feel the same way to. I know it is not the best feeling in the world and it may not be fun at times (given a choice, it definitely isn't); especially when all you want to do is be in one another's arms. And the fact that you are willing to give us a shot even though the term 'LDR' just turns you off, makes every second spent with you even more worthwhile.

Back to where we were - (just for future references) you Whatsapped me while I was at work today saying that you have a surprise for me. God knows and probably my colleagues know for that matter how I was grinning like an idiot then. All I wished for was time to pass by faster. When I was done with work, I just dashed my way home as fast as I could and walla! There is my man. :) All seated in front of his laptop whilst being busy looking so fine. I honestly didn't know what to expect because well, it was a surprise after all. Before I know it, you were strumming the strings on your guitar to an unfamiliar tune. You asked me if I knew what that song was and me being me, I didn't know but thinking if it was a song that I should actually know. In my defence, you were playing the intro of the song so it was hard for me to guess. Not my main point though. What caught my attention most was the moment you started singing. No words. I repeat, no words can describe how awed I was even when you sang the lyrics to the first sentence of the first verse. It was a song that you wrote for me. And the lyrics to the song just mean so so much to me because of the message it conveys. Needless to say, I got teary eyed and I wasn't faking it alright. :( It was all genuine.

Anyway, that definitely made my night after a long long day and a sleepless night the night before. I don't have anybody to thank but you for what you did for me again. You've done it so effortlessly again. I am truly blessed and lucky to have met someone like you and I wouldn't trade you for anything in this world. That is how much you are worth to me. In fact, it is even more than I could ever express. Yes, people may think and speculate that this is only possible when the journey is smooth sailing. There  is not a single doubt that there are the good times and the bad times that we have to endure but your worth to me will never depreciate but only appreciate. It is during the tough times that we learn the value and worth of one another, right? Well, that is what I'd like to believe at least. Without the storms, all we will ever end up doing is overlook one another's importance. But I know by now your stand in my life and I hope you feel the same way too.

Bottom line of this whole post is that I am so damn grateful to have you in my life and thankful for all the little things that you do for me which are so priceless to me. You may not be the *inserts all sorts of mushy caption* that most of my friends portray their partners to be but know that you have a special place in my heart and you reign as my one and only God-gifted other half whom I'd like to spend my remaining years on earth with. Eternally if possible. I am sorry that I can't give you things that you give to me to make me happy but I thought the least I can do for you is write to you more often just as I have promised you. I hope this is good enough to etch a smile on your face though I will try harder to make you a happier man by other means.

There we go again. Me writing all over the place simply because I am writing with my eyes half open and brain half shut. I think I should stop here before I continue ranting about nothing. I will write to you again soon alright. Once again, thank you for that meaningful and significant song that you wrote for me and for even existing in my life.

I love you so so much.
And only you and you alone know how much I mean it.
xx