Letters To You - # 5

Dear J,

This is my first time writing to you in the middle of the day so I guess that there is no excuse for me to stop writing until the post is lengthy enough, right? :P Anyway, you know the reason I did not write to you before going to bed like I usually do last night. So I am compensating by writing to you now while you're at work. Speaking of which, I hope that you have had a good day at work today despite having pretty rough days at work the past few working days. All I know is that you have been doing a very good job till now so I am proud of you. Heh.

It is the fifth day of my of my Easter break or the university officials would rather call it 'study break' today (which is rather depressing) and we have been talking to one another in the morning the past two days. Being the pig between the both of us, you would usually be the one who wakes up earlier and be the one to wait for my call. Lol. However, I must say that it really makes my day to be able to talk to you right after I get up because well, you make me happy so effortlessly. I could just stare at you all day long and that is enough to make me more than happy. I hope that applies to you too. *grins*

In this post today, I would like to remind you of the day you asked me to be your other half which is pretty much the biggest question to me thus far. Well, until you decide to pop the bigger question in the near future (?) Lol. Okay, lets not get sidetracked and go back to the main point.

So, it was this one fine and sunny Sunday afternoon dated the 2nd of March 2014. You were out having lunch at Sushi King with our usual Sunday company after church. We were texting one another as per usual until there came a moment where you told me this, "I think I have finally fallen for you." Only God and my sister knows how I reacted when I saw what you have written to me then. Haha. I was basically grinning from ear to ear simply because it seemed to be the most unexpected thing to me at that time. And I wouldn't disclose what I said in return because for one, I'm too shy and for another, I don't actually remember what was it that I said. Lol. But I was really happy then. That is not the climax of the story of how it all started though. It continued on with the fact that not long after you said that, you asked me the ultimate question, "So, you want to be my girlfriend ah?" And then for the second time in a span of 15 minutes or so did I start chuckling to myself and hiding my face with a pillow just to hide the amount of joy I was expressing to my sister who was nearby me. Clearly, that didn't help much because when I took the pillow off my face, she was just staring at me and giving me the 'Wtf-is-wrong-with-you' look. Me being me, I just ignored her as I was just living in my own world at that moment. I remember that it took me a few minutes before I replied you not because I was doubting but because I was ecstatic and pretty much overjoyed. With that said, it is obvious that the answer I gave you was a "Yes, of course." But then, you and I know that until I go back only would things be official. And I want you to know that I really do respect and look up to what you decided to do from the start because it is not what every normal guy would do. Hee.

On the other hand, you asked me a very good question that I haven't taken much time to ponder about although it did cross my mind once or twice a few hours back. The question being, "What will you do if God would have forbid us from being together?" I will honestly say I don't know what I would do because I know that one side of me is you and the other side of me is God. I know I will have to obey God just as you said you would do earlier but at the same time, I know there is a bigger part of me that will want to just hang on to you. It is definitely a situation that I do not want to be in but I am pretty sure I know that my heart will overpower my head. However, just as the both of us said earlier that there are no such signs even after praying about it, all I will do now is shower you with all my love and treasure you with my life. Like I say, you are the missing piece to my heart all these while and I wouldn't do anything that will risk losing you. That is just how much you mean to me if not more.

Heh. That is just about all my thoughts being penned down for you today. I just want to say that I am grateful to God for placing you in my life. I hope and pray to God that we will simply continue to grow to love one another more and more each passing day as well as to appreciate & respect & learn to understand one another and at the same time walk closer to Him together until the end of time. I really can't wait to go back and spend all the time we can together with you. I just want to be right by your side all the time. :)

I love you long long time, my sunshine.
Much hugs & kisses.
<3