Letters To You - # 7

Dear J,

Picking up from where we left, things are very well between the both of us now and I know that I am very much happy that to know that we were able to resolve what went wrong before this although I may not express it to you. Thank you for putting up with me and for hanging onto what we have now. It means the world to me. :)

Okay, enough of the sappy and cheesy stuff.

This may seem really random but I would like to bring up the fact that you got a haircut today. YAY! It has been quite some time since you last cut your hair, right? And if you still think that I was 'lying' about you looking really good with your new hairstyle, I would like to publicly announce and declare that I was really sincere when I said it. Hehe. I know I said you looked really different and I wasn't used to seeing you with short hair but you looked different in a really good way. Change is good and I would love to get used to seeing you like that simply because you are a real heartthrob. :) Like I always say when I talk to you and you would probably already know by now that I could stare at you all day long and that is enough to make my day. Just like I was just now if you realised. Anyway, back to where we were - your new hairstyle. I must agree that you do look more badass-ish with your new haircut which I like. Well, if you remember, I once told you that I like it when you have the badass kinda look when you first pierced your ear. Not that I don't like it when you don't have the badass kinda look but given a choice, I prefer you that way cause you really pull off that look. All I'm hoping now is that other girls will just keep their eyes off you cause you know me well enough and you probably know what I say I would do to them already. :3 I'm really selfish when it comes to my man.

On the other hand, its only been a couple of hours since I last talked to you and I am already missing you. And when I say a couple of hours, I simply mean a time span of only 4 hours. I really do enjoy spending practically half the day talking to you minus your working hours and the time spent sleeping and doing what we need to do. Realising that I won't be able to repeat the whole cycle again next week because my 10 days break is coming to an end is just dejecting. I know that I should be used to it by now but you know the feeling of euphoria you get when you do what you enjoy and all you want to do is slow down time and even preserve that moment? That is the kind of phase that I am in now. I do realise that I need to do some reality check but I don't want to face it.

However, I guess that there is always light at the end of every tunnel and in my case, coming to realisation that time is catching up simply means that I am closer to spending time with you personally. I remember how I would usually tell you that it will about 3 months plus before I go back when you ask me but as much as time seems to go by like a tortoise, I will be back in less than 2 months. Hehehe. No words can perfectly describe how much I look forward for that day to come. It just feels so long since I last got the chance to feel you and be right beside you. But being able to see and talk to you everyday gives me a sense of comfort and gratitude in knowing that I am not in this alone. Even as I am writing this, chills are running down my spine and there is this little heartache that I feel because of how fond I am of you. As much as it may be wishful thinkings, I just wish that time will tick by faster so that I get to see you sooner and when that time finally comes, time will slow down so I get to relish every moment spent with you.

"I'll hold you in my heart, till I can hold you in my arms."

I love you.

Now & forever.

xx